my laptop is dying...yes, dying. something is wrong with the screen.
by some miracle, i just happened to be able to post at school this morning...even though there are 50 other things i should be doing, i felt it important to give you advance warning of my probable absence from blogging.
since i'm here...
we had a wonderful thanksgiving. we had lunch with one of jerry's co-workers on thursday and then headed to my parents. it snowed on us the entire way home. by the time we arrived at their house, the ground was covered. my mom already had her christmas lights up and on just so jacob could see them more than just at christmas.
he was amazed when we drove in the driveway. my mom does nothing so-so. they have a huge front yard and the majority was covered in something christmas.
jacob got to spend time with his grandma and papa...he's been wanting to so badly. we got to spend time with family and just relax.
of course, it's back to work full force this morning...only 4 weeks to christmas break.
on a random note, pregnancy heartburn has come on full force, making it so hard to sleep. my shirts are too small. unfortunately, i can't find any that i like well enough to spend money on. you people are just going to have to suffer through a bulging belly.
i just noticed the calendar on my classroom wall still says october!
hopefully, we will have a healthy family again. our colds are subsiding. jerry goes to the doctor tomorrow for a full work-up on his blood pressure. jacob seemed okay this morning, so we're not taking him back to the doctor. i go back on thursday for my check-up. did i tell you she's already got me going every 2 weeks??
i think i'm almost 30 weeks. only 10 more to go!
i'm having a very hard time lately thinking of having 2 children. i worry so much about jacob and how he will handle it. i worry about me and the guilt i will feel from holding a newborn and having my 2 year old long to be in my lap. i'm having such anxiety that i can hardly look at the nursery right now. i just want to close the door and not think about it. i'm savoring every moment i have with jacob. i know full well that everything will be fine and my love will be multiplied. God will provide me with sufficient time and attention for both.
this is not where i wanted to go with this post. i must stop now, because school hasn't even started and the tears are flowing down my face.
from reading this, i have no idea where i was planning on going.
hopefully our computer will be fixed soon or my school laptop will continue to let me post. if not, i'll miss you guys!