Wednesday, May 30, 2007
the main culprit..."please". trying to get him to ask nicely for something has been a thorn in my side. he's getting better though. they've been working on it at daycare, and it's sorta becoming part of his routine.
well, yesterday, we were eating dinner. as usual, halfway through, he feels he's had enough (rice and strawberries...hey! he's eating, ok!) and he wants to get down and play. we don't try to force eating because it just backfires on us.
later, he comes back and wants another strawberry. i kindly hand him one, not thinking anything of it.
he walks away, stops, turns around with a huge smile on his face and says...
"thank you, momma."
one small step for most, one giant leap for me.
Friday, May 25, 2007
i guess i should explain in case you're wondering what he's saying. if you've ever seen space jam (with michael jordan and bugs bunny), there's a song on there called "basketball jones". jerry sings it constantly to jacob and jacob finally picked it up. this is his rendition.
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
you are my husband, partner, lover, best friend, father to our child, and so much more. the image of the first time i saw you has never left my mind. i remember seeing the most gorgeous blue eyes i had ever seen. they were mesmerizing. they drew me in and never me let go.
i remember looking forward to coming to school every day just to see you for 5 minutes. of course, there was a lot of flirting going on. i don't think i ever smiled so much in my life. i would come home daily with some new story to tell kylah about you.
i knew one day, you would be my husband. here we are 3 years later. you have made these the happiest 3 years of my life. i can only look forward to what God has in store for us in the next chapter of our life together.
i will relish in every moment!
i love you!
Monday, May 21, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
but today, 7th period, one of my students comes in and asks if i like my car?
not only do i have shoe polish, i now have streamers attached from every place possible.
the worst part...
i'm afraid they're not done!!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
it read as follows:
(on the front)
Do you know what I love most about us?
I know life has been fast and crazy lately. So, I wanted to take a moment totell you how much I love you. Thanks for being such a GREAT wife and mother. Jacob and I love you more than anything in this world. I can't wait to see you.
I love you,
things like this just make me melt.
i love my husband so much!!
one of the hardest parts is that i'm a certified teacher but i co-teach all day long. i had to move into someone else's classroom and i'm generally thought of as the "aide" even though we are supposed to be equals.
i've never really felt like a true teacher.
in fact, today i had a teacher call my co-teacher and ASK if i could come up to the credit recovery lab to help some students out...like my co-teacher was my boss or something. it just really irritated me. (she is a long-term sub and she didn't know any better)
but, when i got back to my room, two of my senior girls told me to come to the window and look at my car. they had written all over it with shoe polish!
most would probably be irritated and mad because they now had to wash their car...
but to me, today, it made me feel like a teacher...an acknowledged, appreciated, loved teacher.
they wrote things like #1 teacher, karina loves u, and even sexy mama.
a very small thing, but it kinda made my day.
maybe i can make it through the next 2 weeks after all.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
are there ever days that you would like to take back or redo?
this is one of those days. not today as in may 15, 2007, but today in the past.
the day has gotten easier as the years have past, but still lingers in my mind.
without the details, mistakes have been made, the price has been paid, forgiveness has been given.
but this day...
Monday, May 14, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
i've never really made a big deal about the day before i was a mom. but now that i am, i realize how important it is to recognize others.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Have a nice day!
so, in the process of reading this e-mail, it felt as though God was talking directly to me.
i woke up late this morning, hurried around to get ready, kissed my boys goodbye and went to work. once i got to work, i had free time, but just sat around.
luckily, i got this e-mail early this morning and had every intention to correct myself. yet again, i got busy.
it breaks my heart to think how i'm acting.
in fact, i called jerry at lunch and he talked to me for like 2 seconds. i was so mad when i got off the phone.
but at least he said hi. that's more than i can say for myself.
so many times we forget to "talk". but this e-mail sums it up perfectly. He is so patient and loves us so much. He will continue to wait for us.
i am so thankful for this.
i am so thankful for our God.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
i got a new job!
i've been waiting and praying for over a year now to get out of my current job. finally, with much persuasion from a few friends and people high up...i'm in.
my new title...
middle school math teacher -- glenn middle school
i'm not sure what grade yet. it's not all finalized.
the best part...besides being on the other side of town, having my own room, and not teaching high school...
no special ed!
i'm so incredibly excited!
thank you to those who have been pulling and praying for me. it paid off!
Monday, May 7, 2007
"miss, have you ever smoked weed?"
"uh, no. i'm not stupid!"
"it's not stupid. people do it all the time."
i walk away.
"man, i had to go to the hospital this weekend...i hurt my back and they gave me morphine. i was so high! it was crazy. it felt like that time at the park..."
Friday, May 4, 2007
lately meaning the past 5 days or so.
yesterday, i'm at work and one of my students made a comment about me and i asked what they said.
"you had a baby, mrs. ramirez, and you're skinny."
but, i did feel much better yesterday. my clothes were fitting better and that comment definitely helped.
when i got home after school, i decided to weigh myself. it's only been 5 days, but something could've happened.
i take my shoes off...
step on the scale...
wait for it...
wait for it...
minus 3 pounds!!
needless to say, i was in a really good mood the rest of the day!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
this is what i'm experiencing right now.
yesterday, i had a granola bar for breakfast, rice cakes for a snack, 300 calorie lunch, and then a grilled chicken salad for dinner.
i was so proud of myself because i didn't even have a snack after dinner!
i think my stomach is eating itself!!
okay, a little exaggeration...but i'm so hungry and i still have 1 hour till lunch!
be strong, crystal...be strong...
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
of course, that is yet to happen.
but, i have been trying to eat better. i've tried to go back to my 100 calorie snacks and small lunches with moderate dinners. it's only been a couple of days, so no results so far.
for most, you're thinking, "what??"
due to not-so-good circumstances, in the past month, she's lost like 15 pounds. the woman is not big by any means. she now weighs like 124 pounds!
how sad that i'm jealous of my mother-in-law!