do you ever find yourself walking in public and feeling every eye upon you...particularly when you have children?
lately i've felt like i'm one of "those" moms and i have one of "those" kids. like every eye is watching me and judging my every move.
i have been so incredibly blessed with my family...my husband...my son. if you had told me about 10 years ago, this is how my life would be, i would've laughed in your face. i couldn't ask for anything more...
what's with them? is it all in my head?
jacob just turned two, and i believe he's embracing it and everything that comes with it...aka...the terrible two's.
he is a wonderful little boy and i know it. just lately he's acting so different than normal. it's putting me to the test...or preparing me for the next?!
when i see the things i get a little frustrated at, i look back at the end of the day and realize how lucky i am that that's all i have to worry about. but in the heat of the moment, i just can't see it. i feel so guilty after getting frustrated with him for talking too much or pulling out too many toys or running around like a normal boy.
(when i look back at this post tomorrow, i'm going to feel really guilty.)
of course, anytime i think i need a break from him, i'm gone for 10 minutes and wishing i was back with him again.
the point, you ask?
when people look at me, i want them to think, "wow, there's something different about her. she's got it together. look how she handles things."
not, "wow, she needs a break. learn how to handle your child."
i want people to look at me and smile...not snarl.
can you sense the frustration?