Saturday, August 28, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
new blog...maybe.
you've probably seen on jenny's blog the switch to a new one.
we've also been working on a new sprinkle one from the same place but are still working out the kinks.
i'm thinking of moving mine there also, just because it's so much easier for pictures! and with the recent disney trip, i need easy!
so take a look!
crystaldramirez.myfotojournal.com
(plus, i have no idea what this photobucket thing is that's floating around on here!!)
we've also been working on a new sprinkle one from the same place but are still working out the kinks.
i'm thinking of moving mine there also, just because it's so much easier for pictures! and with the recent disney trip, i need easy!
so take a look!
crystaldramirez.myfotojournal.com
(plus, i have no idea what this photobucket thing is that's floating around on here!!)
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
handsome boys
how can they be so cute apart yet so goofy together?! this is the best attempt at getting a picture of them anywhere near each other. sad, i know.
so the rest will be of them apart...as usual.
sea world
we took a mini vacation a couple of weeks ago to san antonio. we stayed at a hotel on the riverwalk one night and then with kylah for the next two. much fun!
this was jacob's second trip to sea world and casen's first. they had a blast! and we had fun watching them!
casen obviously looks thrilled here. :) he was probably pouting because jacob got out of the car first...a daily fight in the ramirez household.
casen was too scared to get in the picture.
can you see casen clinging to jerry? i'm telling you...terrified!
we did NOT sit in the splash zone. i just can't make myself do it.
this was jacob's first roller coaster ride ever. he was quite thrilled. actually, this was his second. he rode it once earlier in the day, but i didn't get a picture. he was with jerry, and i was busy looking for one of the bands to my wedding ring. i'll give you one guess who was responsible...casen! a whole other story. :)
Saturday, June 5, 2010
and then there's this...
we just got home a little while ago from a mini vacation.
as we're unpacking, i'm trying to pick up the house at the same time. i'm rearranging things on shelves and putting things away.
i was reorganizing the pile of things we have on our nightstand.
i picked up my bible to move it and noticed and ant on it. (that's a whole other story.) anyway, i shook my bible to get the ant off and a small envelope fell out.
the envelope was from one of our women's retreats. it simply said "my beloved" on the front.
i pulled out the card inside and it read, "my eyes and affections are upon you now."
i remember being at the retreat and getting that card and thinking, how does this apply to me now? i struggled with the meaning then.
but man, i get it now.
how appropriate. how perfect. how simply...Him.
i opened my bible to put it into some random spot and i came to the book of Numbers. i started reading through and remembered that in my older bible, the one that has ALL the notes and underlines, and highlights in it that i had marked a specific portion of Numbers. my current bible is the Message version. i couldn't easily recognize the verse so i went and pulled out my other bible. i immediately found it.
Numbers 6:22 - 27 (NKJV)
22 And the Lord spoke to Moses, saying: "Speak to Aaron and his sons, saying, 'This is the way you shall bless the children of Israel. Say to them: 24 "The Lord bless you and keep you; 25 The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; 26 The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace.'" 27 "So they shall put my name on the children of Israel, and I will bless them."
all i could do was smile.
what an awesome God we serve.
as we're unpacking, i'm trying to pick up the house at the same time. i'm rearranging things on shelves and putting things away.
i was reorganizing the pile of things we have on our nightstand.
i picked up my bible to move it and noticed and ant on it. (that's a whole other story.) anyway, i shook my bible to get the ant off and a small envelope fell out.
the envelope was from one of our women's retreats. it simply said "my beloved" on the front.
i pulled out the card inside and it read, "my eyes and affections are upon you now."
i remember being at the retreat and getting that card and thinking, how does this apply to me now? i struggled with the meaning then.
but man, i get it now.
how appropriate. how perfect. how simply...Him.
i opened my bible to put it into some random spot and i came to the book of Numbers. i started reading through and remembered that in my older bible, the one that has ALL the notes and underlines, and highlights in it that i had marked a specific portion of Numbers. my current bible is the Message version. i couldn't easily recognize the verse so i went and pulled out my other bible. i immediately found it.
Numbers 6:22 - 27 (NKJV)
22 And the Lord spoke to Moses, saying: "Speak to Aaron and his sons, saying, 'This is the way you shall bless the children of Israel. Say to them: 24 "The Lord bless you and keep you; 25 The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; 26 The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace.'" 27 "So they shall put my name on the children of Israel, and I will bless them."
all i could do was smile.
what an awesome God we serve.
Monday, May 31, 2010
making it.
i have thought up this post about a thousand times in the last week, but i've never had the courage to actually type it.
i haven't because it would mean that the nightmare that i've been in is actually real.
there's no waking up from this one with an overwhelming sense of relief that it was all a dream. not this time.
this time it's all real.
it's been exactly one week since i found out that my baby's heart had stopped beating. it happened sometime around 8 1/2 weeks. we didn't find out until this past monday.
i still can't really put into words what i felt when the doctor told us. i was in shock. still am, i guess.
one day i was rejoicing about how much better i felt. the nausea had subsided. the next day, i was finding out that was the first clue that something was wrong.
it crossed my mind when i woke up one morning and just felt better. i could actually eat breakfast. i worried for a moment. but then i pushed those thoughts to the back and convinced myself that it was normal for me to feel better. i was almost 10 weeks. i wasn't nauseated long with casen. it seemed to be okay.
it wasn't.
for two weeks, something had been very wrong. and i had no clue.
for a mom, that's pretty hard to take. how could i not know? shouldn't i have had that intuition? i try not to go there. i know nothing that i did or didn't do caused this. but man, it's hard.
it's just hard.
it's hard to not be angry. it's hard to not just fall into myself and away from everyone. it's hard to be reminded mutliple times a day by the physical effects that come with it. it's hard to see the bruises from the multiple attempts at an iv. it's hard to hear my 4-year old say he's sad because he's not going to have a baby sister. it's hard to see my husband hurting when everyone is so concerned with me. it's hard to smile when i feel guilty because it seems like it's too soon to think of anything else. it's hard to see the smiles drop from the faces of those who have just figured out what happened as they talk to me. it's hard to tell my 2-year old no when he points to my belly and says "baby". it's hard to not ask why. it's hard to not ask why me.
and it's hard to accept the fact that God knows something that we don't.
i know sometime in the future, a post will come about peace. God is our comforter, our savior, our healer. i have total faith in Him.
until that peace comes, i'll just be making it.
i haven't because it would mean that the nightmare that i've been in is actually real.
there's no waking up from this one with an overwhelming sense of relief that it was all a dream. not this time.
this time it's all real.
it's been exactly one week since i found out that my baby's heart had stopped beating. it happened sometime around 8 1/2 weeks. we didn't find out until this past monday.
i still can't really put into words what i felt when the doctor told us. i was in shock. still am, i guess.
one day i was rejoicing about how much better i felt. the nausea had subsided. the next day, i was finding out that was the first clue that something was wrong.
it crossed my mind when i woke up one morning and just felt better. i could actually eat breakfast. i worried for a moment. but then i pushed those thoughts to the back and convinced myself that it was normal for me to feel better. i was almost 10 weeks. i wasn't nauseated long with casen. it seemed to be okay.
it wasn't.
for two weeks, something had been very wrong. and i had no clue.
for a mom, that's pretty hard to take. how could i not know? shouldn't i have had that intuition? i try not to go there. i know nothing that i did or didn't do caused this. but man, it's hard.
it's just hard.
it's hard to not be angry. it's hard to not just fall into myself and away from everyone. it's hard to be reminded mutliple times a day by the physical effects that come with it. it's hard to see the bruises from the multiple attempts at an iv. it's hard to hear my 4-year old say he's sad because he's not going to have a baby sister. it's hard to see my husband hurting when everyone is so concerned with me. it's hard to smile when i feel guilty because it seems like it's too soon to think of anything else. it's hard to see the smiles drop from the faces of those who have just figured out what happened as they talk to me. it's hard to tell my 2-year old no when he points to my belly and says "baby". it's hard to not ask why. it's hard to not ask why me.
and it's hard to accept the fact that God knows something that we don't.
i know sometime in the future, a post will come about peace. God is our comforter, our savior, our healer. i have total faith in Him.
until that peace comes, i'll just be making it.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
six years...plus one day.
yesterday, jerry and i celebrated our sixth anniversary.
the statement, "time flies when you're having fun" is so, so true.
of course, time also flies when you have kids.
and when you both work.
and when you're dealing with sickness all the time.
and when you love someone so much, you can't help but want every second with him to last an eternity.
jerry,
this has totally been us for the last six years. it's been a whirlwind, but i wouldn't want to be in this thing we call our life with anyone but you. i find myself loving you more everyday than the day before...if that's possible. i can't wait to see what the future holds in store for us next.
happy anniversary,
crystal
the statement, "time flies when you're having fun" is so, so true.
of course, time also flies when you have kids.
and when you both work.
and when you're dealing with sickness all the time.
and when you love someone so much, you can't help but want every second with him to last an eternity.
jerry,
this has totally been us for the last six years. it's been a whirlwind, but i wouldn't want to be in this thing we call our life with anyone but you. i find myself loving you more everyday than the day before...if that's possible. i can't wait to see what the future holds in store for us next.
happy anniversary,
crystal
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
reminiscing
i was looking back through my first posts on my blog this morning and came across this.
can you believe it??
my baby is so big now!
i don't even know what else to say...
can you believe it??
my baby is so big now!
i don't even know what else to say...
Monday, May 3, 2010
it's official
due december 15.
it's been a crazy roller coaster ride already! i hope this is not a preview of what's to come.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
happy birthday!
to my wonderful husband!
he's finally caught up with me in age. :)
i love you so much and can't imagine any part of my life without you. you are such a joy to me and our boys. they absolutely adore you. i totally know why. i hope that we can make today as special for you as you make every other day special for us.
happy birthday!
i love you!
he's finally caught up with me in age. :)
i love you so much and can't imagine any part of my life without you. you are such a joy to me and our boys. they absolutely adore you. i totally know why. i hope that we can make today as special for you as you make every other day special for us.
happy birthday!
i love you!
Monday, March 29, 2010
thursday.
thursday is 3 days away.
thursday is the day casen will have surgery.
thursday is the day they will remove his adenoids and possibly replace the tubes in his ears.
thursday is the day we've been waiting for.
thursday is the day the infections will go away and his asthma will be somewhat, if not totally alleviated.
thursday is the day my baby will finally be healed.
thursday.
thursday is the day casen will have surgery.
thursday is the day they will remove his adenoids and possibly replace the tubes in his ears.
thursday is the day we've been waiting for.
thursday is the day the infections will go away and his asthma will be somewhat, if not totally alleviated.
thursday is the day my baby will finally be healed.
thursday.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
want to cry?
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
wow!
if this girl were my daughter, i would be so broke. lucky for me, she's my niece, and i always have the privilege of capturing her cuteness!
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