do i need any words??

a date

jacob and i went on a date on thursday. we went to disney live: tigger and pooh. it was such a good time getting to hang out with my little boy. i don't get to do that very often.

here's how the date went.

you can tell my "date" is really into me, huh?!

this is how he was for the first 20-30 minutes. he wanted to either be in my lap or right beside me.

he eventually moved to the floor beside our chairs so he could see. naturally, i also had to move to the floor.

he's starting to get into it...
and what's this?? he's bouncin' around like tigger!
i love to see the smile on his face!

he definitely came out of his shell for the night.

this is when it was time to go. he was not thrilled.

a boy on a mission

my little boy is growing massive amounts while i'm gone! i'm talking massive! not size-wise, but physical capability. last week, he learned to sit up, hold his own bottle, and scoot backwards. today, we have this. he's been inching for a few days. i guess the keys really do it for him.

(and never mind the flying car in the background! we're not even going to talk about that little boy right now.)

already

in one short week, casen has learned to sit up, "crawl" backwards...it's really more of a scoot, and hold his own bottle!

he has not mastered any of them, but still...

school is now two days away and already i'm missing so much!

jacob seems so big right now...so smart...so intuitive.

i just don't want to leave them.

of course, that dream will have to hold off for a while...years, probably.

by the time it's feasible, they'll probably both be in school. then, really, what's the point?

i could be one of those moms who doesn't work and just volunteers at their kids' schools.

hmm...i kinda like that idea! =)

anyway, the past week has been so stressful. everyday, all i've been able to think about is getting my boys.

yesterday was a HARD day. i was so stressed out that i felt sick to my stomach for the majority of the day. all i wanted to do was go pick up jacob and casen and kiss and hold them.

toward the end of the day, i did get a text from my sweet friend, sarah. after that, a wave of peace and rejoicing came over me. thanks, friend!

i just have to remember i am where i am for a reason. until God decides otherwise, i have to rejoice in my assignment...embrace it...love it...own it.

my goal for the year is for my students to see a different me...the me i am when i'm with my boys...the me who smiles constantly just thinking of them...the me whose joy shows through with no effort.

that is my goal.

something new

he sits...and he love mirrors.

big boy

this was my conversation this morning with jacob on our way to school.

me: "are you my baby?"

jacob: "no! i'm not a baby!"

me: "well, are you at least my little boy?"

jacob: "no! i'm not little!"

me: "well, what are you?"

jacob: "i'm big now!"

so, there you have it. he is no longer my baby or even my little boy. he is just big!

just wanted you to know...

at one point, my baby really did have wrists and ankles!

a sad, sad day

today is my last day of summer.

casen got 3 shots today. he is now sleeping.

jacob is at daycare. i left him kicking and screaming.

i have so many things to do, but no motivation.

one word answers

1. Where is your cell phone? lap
2. Your significant other? away
3. Your hair? flippy
4. Your Skin? white
5. Your mother? loud
6. Your Favorite Thing? boys
7. Your dream last night? forgettable
8. Your favorite drink? dc
9. Your dream/goal? success
10. The room you’re in? office
11. Your ex? gone
12. Your fear? failure
13. where do you want to be in six years? home
14. Where were you last night? home
15. What you’re not? patient
16. Muffins? blueberry
17. One of your wish list items? corvette
18. Where you grew up? avoca
19. The last thing you did? this
20. What are you wearing? capris
21. Your TV? high
22. Your pet(s)? none
23. Your computer? desktop
24. Your life? wonderful
25. Your mood? excited
26. Missing someone? jerry
27. Your car? occupied
29. Favorite Store? target
30. Your summer? gone
31. Like someone? daddy
32. Your favorite color? green
33. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
34. Last time you cried? days
35. Who will/would re-post this? kylah
36. Whose Answers are you anxious to see? everyone's

more pics

here's a few more pics of casen. i've been wanting to take pictures of him with his quilt from his bed. yesterday, i stuffed it in a crate and stuck him in it. as i'm looking at them now, i realize you can't see much of the bedding. i guess i was just so focused on his cute little face!

the new do

okay. here it is.

before:

after:











the look i was somewhat going for:
(not the color, of course.)











okay, so it's definitely not rachael, but i do like it.

dangit!

i dropped to the bottom of seph's list!

i couldn't let that happen for long.

that's all i have for now.

expect pictures later of the new do.