so here's the whole story...
i'm a little ashamed to admit that i didn't divulge every detail of the situation in my previous post. i was still a little scared about putting it all out there.
for the past two sundays, i've had major meltdowns during worship. i've just been so frustrated and upset and mad and tired and just plain lacking. so much so that two sundays ago, i turned to greet sheena. she simply asked, "how are the boys?" and that's all it took. tears flowed like a raging rain storm.
this sunday, as lennon was giving his "ask big" pre-sermon, i just broke down again. i knew i had asked God to makes my boys better before, but i also knew that i never really believed it would happen. those things happen in others' lives. not mine.
but this time...this time i put it all on the line. i asked God to fully heal them. not just for now, but forever. now, i don't expect them to never be sick again, but a cold...i can handle that. i'm talking about this ridiculous, recurring asthma/ear infection junk. take it. take it for good. and then i went even further. i asked that it not be somewhere down the road. i want it today (monday).
you see, i knew casen had a check up with his ear, nose and throat doctor today to evaluate his tubes that we had put in just about a year ago this week. i asked that our answer come then. no more wondering. no more waiting. now.
i left work about 3:50. his appointment was at 3:45. i knew they'd have to wait a little while. i went fully expecting to hear a word from God. a word that said your son is healed.
we finally get in to see the doc about 4:15. we explain that casen has still had at least 8 infections since getting his tubes last year. the doc was surprised.
with tubes, it's supposed to reduce ear infections to maybe one, if any after they're put in. certainly not 8. one of the tubes is getting ready to fall out.
the doc comes back with, i think we should take his adenoids out.
never in this time have i had any sense of panic or fear. i have total peace.
apparently, the adenoids can be kinda like a nest for infections. by removing them, not only should the infections cease, but with casen having asthma, those symptoms should improve dramatically, if not go away completely.
peace. complete, overwhelming peace.
this was our word. this was our amazing work from God.
is it the way we would've dreamed it? no. i'd much rather just have a miraculous healing and be done. but i'll take it.
God gave us doctors for a reason. in this case, this doctor will be the vessel in which my baby boy is healed.
so, on april 1, my baby will undergo another minor surgery. they'll take his adenoids and possibly replace the tubes with another set. this will be the answer.
obviously, this only takes care of one of my babies. but i know that He has amazing things in store for the other one too.
i know, that i know, that i know, this is it.
in less than a day, God has proven himself amazing.