something new

he sits...and he love mirrors.

big boy

this was my conversation this morning with jacob on our way to school.

me: "are you my baby?"

jacob: "no! i'm not a baby!"

me: "well, are you at least my little boy?"

jacob: "no! i'm not little!"

me: "well, what are you?"

jacob: "i'm big now!"

so, there you have it. he is no longer my baby or even my little boy. he is just big!

just wanted you to know...

at one point, my baby really did have wrists and ankles!

a sad, sad day

today is my last day of summer.

casen got 3 shots today. he is now sleeping.

jacob is at daycare. i left him kicking and screaming.

i have so many things to do, but no motivation.

one word answers

1. Where is your cell phone? lap
2. Your significant other? away
3. Your hair? flippy
4. Your Skin? white
5. Your mother? loud
6. Your Favorite Thing? boys
7. Your dream last night? forgettable
8. Your favorite drink? dc
9. Your dream/goal? success
10. The room you’re in? office
11. Your ex? gone
12. Your fear? failure
13. where do you want to be in six years? home
14. Where were you last night? home
15. What you’re not? patient
16. Muffins? blueberry
17. One of your wish list items? corvette
18. Where you grew up? avoca
19. The last thing you did? this
20. What are you wearing? capris
21. Your TV? high
22. Your pet(s)? none
23. Your computer? desktop
24. Your life? wonderful
25. Your mood? excited
26. Missing someone? jerry
27. Your car? occupied
29. Favorite Store? target
30. Your summer? gone
31. Like someone? daddy
32. Your favorite color? green
33. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
34. Last time you cried? days
35. Who will/would re-post this? kylah
36. Whose Answers are you anxious to see? everyone's

more pics

here's a few more pics of casen. i've been wanting to take pictures of him with his quilt from his bed. yesterday, i stuffed it in a crate and stuck him in it. as i'm looking at them now, i realize you can't see much of the bedding. i guess i was just so focused on his cute little face!

the new do

okay. here it is.

before:

after:











the look i was somewhat going for:
(not the color, of course.)











okay, so it's definitely not rachael, but i do like it.

dangit!

i dropped to the bottom of seph's list!

i couldn't let that happen for long.

that's all i have for now.

expect pictures later of the new do.

photos

i do realize it is utterly ridiculous to post pictures of any sort after our friend jenny has just posted some the same day, but i have to do it. it's been a while, and today is the first day i've had enough time to edit any and in the same day enough time to post them.

these are a mix of being out at the lake with my parents and a few from the block party a couple of nights ago.

did you notice a trend here? it's much easier to take pictures of a child that can't get away...hence the plethora of casen pics.

the one with the bear in the mouth is my favorite.

update

okay, so the flowers did not get done. they probably won't for a while. it is what it is.

the cleaning part has gone well so far. i've gotten the boys' rooms done and my closet. all that's left is the garage.

this morning, casen got up at 6:45. i fed him and then hoped he would go back to sleep. i had all but given up and went in to pat his back and pick him up. i patted his back for a while and what do you know, he went back to sleep. he slept until almost 9, as did jacob. so, can you guess what i did? i slept til almost 9, of course! i should have been at the gym at 9 for body pump, but after holding the dead weight of casen sleeping yesterday at church for a half hour, i don't think i could have done it anyway. my arm was seriously killing me. my wrist and elbow are sore today. how sad is that?!

i really have nothing else important planned. i have been researching my haircut. i'm pretty psyched about it. but still, just in case i chicken out, i don't want to reveal it. i'll definitely post pictures. i'm sure most of you have an idea of where i'm going.

oh, i did go buy some stuff for school yesterday. can you believe i only have two more weeks at home with my boys?! it's heartbreaking! this summer has seriously flown. we probably all say that, but this one really has. it's amazing.

alright, my boys have been playing with each other for a while now, so i should probably go check on them. and by playing, i mean casen is laying on the floor while jacob is running circles around him. so cute.

wow!

what a week we have had.

• starting last thursday, that would be july 17, my parents were in town. they were here until monday. they brought their camper and stayed out at the lake. that meant that i was there with my boys pretty much all day everyday from thursday until monday.
• saturday was jacob's birthday party. that was exhausting! this was the first "friend" party we had. man, it went well! jacob had so much fun.
• monday was jacob's 3-year check up. he is barely 3 feet tall and only weighs 28 pounds. while we were there, we asked the doc to check casen's ears. he's been pulling on the left one. sure enough, he has an ear infection. poor guy. he, on the other hand, is not even 6 months and weighs almost 20 pounds!
• also on monday, my parents left and took jacob with them. that was a sad, sad day.
• tuesday thru thursday, i had workshops. gt workshops. can you imagine how exciting they were? and can you sense my sarcasm? they were supposed to go through friday, but due to an unfortunate death in our instructor's family, he cancelled friday. i have to go back next wednesday. sarah kept casen on tuesday, and wendy kept him on wednesday and thursday. you girls are the best!
• friday i drove to abilene to get jacob. i couldn't stand it any longer! my mom and my sister and her son met us at the zoo. we made our round and then went to eat at abuelo's. nice! we made a visit to kohl's and target. after that, it was time to go home. the boys were both on edge. jacob was definitely ready for a nap and casen was tired of being in his carseat!
• that brings us to today. we've been up since 7. casen has just gone down for his nap. jerry is mowing the lawn. jacob is watching cartoons. i'm doing this. (i should be taking a shower!) our plan for the day is to go look for some new flowers to replace the hideous red ones that adorn our front sidewalk. then from 5-9 tonight, our street is having a block party. yes, a block party. we got a flyer the other day on our door. they're having bouncy things, dunking booths, food, music, etc. should be fun.
• my plan for the next week includes cleaning out casen and jacob's closets. casen already has tons of clothes that need to be gotten rid of. i'll be preparing those to take to sarah and the rest of the stuff for the garage sale.
• speaking of garage sale...sarah, i'm serious. just tell me when you plan on readying all the stuff for the sale. i'll be there. you are NOT doing this alone!
• oh, and one last thing, at some point friday morning, i will be getting a hair cut and color. i'm planning on it being a drastic thing. it is quite possible i could chicken out, but to tease you, picture a certain food network star's new haircut.

alright, i believe that's about it. man, can you imagine me trying to have that conversation with someone? you people would think i was on crack or something! =)

mesquite beans

we spent the past few days out at the lake with my parents. jacob has absolutely loved it.

last night, he went with my dad, his papa, to walk around and see things.

he came back with these.

for those of you who don't know, they are called mesquite beans.

my dad had been telling him that all day.

so last night we asked jacob what they were called.

his reply..."ummm...mosquito bites!"

my baby

today, my baby is three years old.

i can't even believe it.

seriously...it feels like yesterday, i was looking at that little stick with two pink lines.

now, my little boy is growing up and having birthday parties with his friends!

thanks, by the way, for coming! you made his day so special.

anyway, three years has flown by like nothing. the next thing i know he'll be graduating high school.

i can't take this! make it stop!

it makes me sad everytime i think about him getting older.

jacob,
my vow to you is to cherish every moment we have together. i can't believe how big you're getting. i love you with all my heart. i love that sweet smile and even sweeter voice. i love hearing the words, "i love you, momma." i love the way you speak in complete sentences and have been for at least a year now. i love how you like all your toys to be in just the right spot. i love how you still like to sleep with momma and daddy. and i love how you love your little brother. someday, you might look back at this and think what a cheesy mom i was. someday, i will look back at this and remember how much you loved this cheesy mom.

i love you, baby.

happy birthday!

love, momma

just a reminder

jacob's birthday party is tomorrow (saturday) from 2 to 4 at our house.

we hope to see you all here!

if for nothing else then to act like a kid again...remember, we will be having a big bouncy thing!!

jacob's new toy

this is jacob's big birthday present. jerry and his dad put it together early to make sure all the parts were there and the wood was good.

okay, the real reason was we just couldn't wait. you'd know that if you read the post about the hulk football!

anyway. he loves it! casen's pretty keen on it, too.

oh, and these are just two cute boys i photographed!

struggling

i've been working on this post for a few days now. i even have a different draft saved that i would have to edit so much it's not even worth it.

to say the least...i'm struggling.

with what, you ask? i know the majority of you are thinking, what could possibly be affecting this calm, cool, collected person, right?

that's just it. i'm this calm, cool, collected person.

that is a problem.

i've got personality issues.

i'm surrounded by bold, bubbly, loving, genuine, straightforward friends and where do i fit in?

i'm the QUIET one.

i really never saw it as a problem...until now.

apparently after four years of marriage, my husband still can't read me. i have such a monotone composure that my emotions are not clear. there's very little difference between happy and sad.

i hate that!

it is also an apparent issue with my job. i'm told i don't smile enough. i don't laugh enough. i don't let the kids see the real me.

what is the real me, for goodness sakes??

i know who i want it to be.

at 26 years old, i've had the same personality my whole life. i'm supposed to change it now?!?!

sure. that'll be easy.

considering it has taken everything in me to push "publish post" for all to see how messed up i am!

what i should be doing right now

what i should be doing right now is getting ready for sarah's shower tomorrow!

this includes:

• sweeping and mopping the tile
• vacuuming
• dusting
• cleaning out my fridge
• clearing out all the toys from the living room
• getting things into their correct place
• going to wal mart for last minute stuff i need
• getting ready to go to the gym in about 45 minutes
• rearranging my furniture a bit to optimize the shower space

at some point today, all these things have to get done. normally on friday's, jerry only works a half day. today will probably be a full one. and after he finally gets home, he also has a job to do...mow the yard!

so i'm now going on one entire hour of free time and what have i used it for??

eating a pop tart and checking blogs.

priorities.

a funny one

jacob is branching out a little from spiderman these days. he's now also into batman, iron man, and the hulk.

a few weeks ago, we saw a hulk football at wal mart. we didn't get it because...i don't remember why. we just didn't. when we finally decided to buy it, it was no longer there.

i ordered one online to give to him for his birthday.

well, jerry and i are the exact same. if we buy something early, it will never make it.

the football came in yesterday.

naturally, we decided to go ahead and give it to him.

jerry went to our closet and put it under his shirt. he came out and i told jacob to see what was in daddy's belly.

jacob lifted up his shirt to find the football. he was so excited. he just kept telling jerry, "that's cool, daddy."

so later, we're all sitting around watching tv, and jacob goes up to jerry and lifts his shirt.

jerry asked, "jacob, what are you doing?"

jacob replied, "looking for the hulk mask!"

you're invited!

jacob's birthday is coming up.

for most, you will be receiving a paper invitation. if you don't, it's not because you're not invited. =) it's because i don't have your address.

i see this as the easiest way to get it out to everyone. as i was typing, i was going to put the invitation on here so you could see it. then i realized it has my address on it. not the best idea.

anyway, for all you...

the party is saturday, july 19 from 2 - 4 p.m. i do realize many of you will be at ryan's wedding. perfectly okay. jacob's birthday just happened to fall on a saturday this year, so i couldn't pass up having his party on that day.

the majority of you know where i live. if you don't, just leave me a comment and i'll get you my address.

we'll be having cake, ice cream, large bouncy thing, new swing set, and all kinds of fun.

those of you who know my little boy, can you guess what the theme will be?? it has something to do with a man who can crawl like a spider. =)

we hope to have you all here!

funny for the day

okay. so we're potty training.

after jacob got up and had his cup of milk this morning, i told him to go to the bathroom.

he's standing at the toilet and i tell him he needs to pee pee in the potty.

a few drops come out.

he looks at me and says, "momma, i don't have anymore pee pee. i ran out."

what could i do but laugh?